I am not trying to make light of anything. This is simply just something to say before I fully leave.

 

SweetD31 had made an absolutely stunning Custume Barracks scenery out of the absolute kindness of his heart in response to a request I made for Irish helipads. He put a LOT of time and effort into it, but ultimately something was wrong, initiated on my behalf. I have an unhealthy (very) fixation, if not obsession of scenery recreation being in the "geographically correct" spot, and I refused to control myself. I said it in a way that came off as very disrespectful, and ungrateful, letting everything slip by as if I was the victim.

 

He and scianoir rightly called out my behaviour, and thinking about it, it did come off as harrassment, and honestly it was. I took a short break off of AVSIM but with my flightsim account I had for a month prior, I commented under his post where he put the file up for Athlone. I thanked him for putting in my screenshot and that I was sorry. What I refused to realise at the time was that it was stalky behaviour.

 

I came back a couple days later, slowly responding every now and then on his thread, initially trying to pass it off as if it was something to forget about. I then said sorry a couple of more times, and without realising it, annoyed him even more. Eventually, he told me to stop. He then mentioned the disadvantages of volanta and why I shouldn't have it. I got very offended over it like a child and argued over it, annoying him even more.

 

Upset, and in an unhinged state, I took the matter to reddit, trying to paint myself as the victim, using the AVSIM = toxic narrative as an excuse. He found my post, and rightfully called me disrespectful and obsessed. However, I still didn't catch on. I made more posts, trying to make people sympathise me. In an unhinged rant, I kept doing it for a couple of days more. That was, up until yesterday. I decided that I would take the time to read what he said. As I read it, it clicked. I was in the wrong. I turned an easily resolvable situation into an absolutely over the top one. Caring more about my feelings, I tarnished a friendship.

 

Hence, that is why I make this post. I will completely deactivate from this point forward. There IS no more excuse. I whined over a very very unimportant detail, failing to realise what the world of FSX is truly like. I deleted the posts on reddit and my comments, and deactivated from Reddit. I am very ashamed of my actions and I messed up beyond repair. This is not a post to excuse myself, nor is it ingenuity. This is a full apology, that I know will not fix anything. I am here to say sorry. For harrassment, for stalking, for whining and complaining over absolutely nothing and turning it into an unhinged event.

 

I have come to my senses, but realised it too late. I am beyond ashamed. I have since started to appreciate the scenery for what it is worth. A passion project, that was made by someone with historical connections to Ireland. And yet, I ruined it with my ungratefulness. That is all I have to say. I am sorry to all. If there was a 0.0001% chance of accepting this apology, I would properly vow to never do anything like this again. I stepped over the line, and must face my everlasting consequences.

I must say your humility, with sincerity is refreshing.

there is freedom in confession and repentance.

and there is grace in forgiveness.

Well done for the Mea Culpa.

However, it illustrates a disturbing trend in flight simulation (and I guess all gaming) that some individuals will become obsessed.

Sometimes it will be masked by excuses or defense mechanisms e.g. "I'm only trying to help make the product better" or "I'm an airline pilot and ... "; why a current airline pilot flying the line would spend their time playing a flight sim is beyond me - which leads to obsessive and unhealthy behaviour.

We all want it to be as realistic as possible, but remember it is just a computer game.

Is it worth losing your mind over?

 

It’s a hobby for education and entertainment purposes, keep it that way

we learn more and more everyday