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Flight Simulation To Be Put On Hold

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Guys, I have just went through the hardest week of my life and it appears the real journey begins next week. Last week I saw my family doctor because I was experiencing some slight pain in my thigh. By the end of that week I was having surgery to have a portion of a mass removed from my right thigh for a biopsy. I was told after the removal that the mass was definitely some sort of tumor. This Tuesday I was informed that the tumor appeared to be malignant and that the tumor was being sent to the Cleveland Clinic for evaluation. Tuesday evening I informed my wife of the preliminary results which was to say the least, agonizing especially when you add to the equation that I have a son who just turned 9 and a daughter that is getting ready to turn 5. Wednesday I was referred to a surgical oncologist at the University of Toledo Medical College who reviewed the preliminary lab report and told me that I had a 55-60% chance that this tumor was benign and to wait on the final results prior to reaching any conclusions. This was great news for my wife and I as you can imagine. However, today, five minutes after I returned home from work, the general surgeon who removed the part of the tumor for biopsy contacted me and said that the results were back from the Cleveland Clinic ad that the tumor was infact malignant and that the tumor was a soft tissue sarcoma called Malignant Fibrous Hystiocytoma of the Myxoid Subtype.To say the least after this weeks events I am emtionally and physically drained. I will begin treatment sometime next week following a full body CT scan scheduled for Monday. I believe that once the treatment process starts my particpation here at AVSIM as well as my hobby of flight simulation are going to come to an abrupt halt so that I can channel my energy towards beating the hand I have been dealt. I apologize to the members of the board for posting this information in this particular forum but seeing how over the years I have come to find that the majority of members that frequent the FSX Forum are very supportive and helpful to other AVSIM members I could not resist the temptation to share my weeks events and provide myself some well needed therapy in doing so.I have made alot of friends here, and possibly and enemy or two..lol...I hope not and thought it would be good to let them know what was going to be happening in my near future rather than wondering why I have disappeared from participation in the AVSIM forums.Thank you for taking the time to listen, if anyone can recommend any type cancer support group or offer any support in general, I'm all ears.If its permissible, I will try to keep you updated on my progress.Once again thank you for lending me your ears.Regards,Bob

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Bob,I'm very sorry to hear this news. While we have never communicated before that does not mean that I cannot offer good thoughts & prayers your way as you start this journey. I hope that all turns out well.

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Hi Bob,Probably I never interacted with you on the forums, but I sincerely wish you all the best for what you're going through. Be positive.A couple years ago I was diagnosed a serious heart problem with very low chance of long term survival, but I was lucky and it completely healed.I'm positive you'll get through it, and probably you'll have a different vista on things of life after that.And keep us informed if you can!Marco

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Bob,I can tell by the name of your post "Flight Simulation to be put on hold", that you have a positive atitude and fully expect to flying with us again someday. I hope that day is not too far down the runway for you.Take care and all of the best of luck to you and your family.

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Bob, I wish you all the best and I will pray for you as I do believe in the power of prayer. You answered a post of mine a few days back and had me try an app....Dpc Latency. I tried it...as you know, and in our communication it was decided latency was not the issue. I continued to watch that app and just watch it over and over and would see those little spikes with the movement of the mouse....click of the browser and of course the ATC and touchdown of the aircraft. I was one sad puppy. Then it hit me that I had to have a ground loop problem. I had experienced that in my 30 years of working on missile systems many times but there was no grounds on the outside of my mother board....or so I thought. When mounting the board Asus informed me to put little red rubber washers under each screw head. I thought they were wrong as each screw hole on the board had solder dots around it and the screws had a lip on them and it hit me that was to make sure the board had a good ground to the case. In looking back on different boards I had installed on many radar systems it let me know I was right. I called Asus again today and they also said I had a ground loop problem but the rubber washers had to stay where they were. Well those holes were not made like that for nothing.....that is SOP for grounding boards that are mounted on stand offs.....it just slipped my mind on instalation...so I took the washers out and lo and behold no more stutters!!! If you could see the posts at the Asus forum about the sound problems. I will post there and let those who want to try it know that it will probably fix their problem. I owe that to you....many thanks. I am on disability and in the winter this is my escape. Without it I sit in this apartment and it makes for long days without the sim working correctly. In the scheme of things it is nothing but because of you I had a smile on my face from ear to ear all day today after plugging this PC back up and after all day testing not one blip. It is fixed, and today you helped bring a little ray of sunshine in my life. You never know what affect you have on someone....even in a forum where we have never met but both pursuing something that brings us much joy. You have put the joy back into my simming as I have to tell you I was in the doldrums. What is my point? As you travel down this road you are starting there will be many who will give you that support to put a smile on your face and that alone will help you in your recovery...may God bless you and your family and hope to see you back soon. All the best, Randy Regards

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Keep positive and focused, my thoughts are with you and your family.

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Bob I,also, have always found your posts to be very helpful. Thanks. Please, do keep us informed as to events and progress.I do not have any suggestions for support forums, but they are a great idea. When I was diagnosed with prostate cancer a few years ago, my wife found a few groups to join. It was, and still is, very helpful.All the best to you and your family.Bob

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Bob All the best to you and your family. W'ell be thinking about you and sending good vibes.

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A lot of positive thoughts are flying your way.We all look forward to you feeling better. Peace and peace of mind be with you.colorado_mountains.gif

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Bob,Best wishes for complete recovery. I know it's scary now but a lot of people have recovered fully from cancerous tumors. You just need to keep a positive attitude as you have now. My thoughts and prayers are with you!Jim Young

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Bob, we have never had the oppotunity to chat here before but i have seen many a posting by you. i wish you the best for you and your family, i am sure that it will be trying at times for all of you but i will pray that one day you, your wife and children will look at this as a distant memory.

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Bob, my heart goes out to you and your family. If you contact your local hospital or the American Cancer Society they can put you in touch with support groups in your area, and trust me, they really do help. My wife was diagnosed with Hepatacellular Carcinoma last February and began her treatment within a week of her diagnosis. Fate smiled on her and through the generous gift of life, she received a liver transplant on July 1st. Fortunately for her, the transplant was a complete success, and she is currently cancer free. You should definitely NOT stop "flying". Any hobbies can help you to relieve stress, and you are and will be under some stress for the forseeable future. I sincerely hope that fate smiles on you and your loved ones, and that you have a positive outcome. I think I can say with some certainty that you have many folks here on the forum who will be keeping you in their thoughts and prayers. Best of luckPat

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Hi Bob,Wish you all strength and soon recovery sent over all the positive energy we got over here our thoughts are with you and your family!

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Dear Bob,I send you my prayers and thoughts.Being strong and positive shoul really help you.Keep hope alive.Best wishesDavid

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Bob - Beleive me I speak from experience when I say that keeping a positive mental attitude will go a LONG way in resolving your problem. In 1988, they found a tumor on my right lung (yes, I was a heavy smoker) - It was malignant and ultimately I lost a lobe of my lung. Needless to say that I am still here. Even though my Mom had died from lung cancer, I never beleived anything other than that I was going to get better.Fear and worry never solved a problem - playing the what-if game is a lose-lose situation.Keep positive thoughts! My best thoughts are with you.Feel free to email me if you just want to let off steamVic

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Take a good read of Pat's (zonie) note. This is 2009, modern medicine beats cancer every day - and I'm sure you're hearing it from everybody - but it's true, nonetheless; not everyone loses out to this insidious disease, Bob. I would suggest not giving up flying the sim, and continue interacting with your buddies in the Avsim family. Your mental health becomes more important in any stressful situation, and that's just as true as if someone was faced with a bird strike, two engines out over New York in an Airbus A320. They all survived. You can survive, too. All the best, pj

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Hi Bob,Chin up, Bob. I do know how you must be feeling right now. I went through it myself in 1997 when a malignant melanoma was diagnosed on my right forearm. To this day I recall that awful moment when my doctor telephoned and asked me to sit down before breaking the news. What made it seem so much worse was the fact that the pathologist's report suggested it could be a metastatic deposit and the site of the primary was unknown. So, I too was subsequently subjected to that mandatory barrage of investigations.However, as you've noted, I'm still here to tell the tale :)Yes, I was lucky. The lesion turned out, after all, to be localised to my forearm and was treated with a deep wide excision of tissue. I'm left with an 11cm longitudinal depressed scar on my arm but, what the heck, I'm alive! Frequent regular visits to the Melanoma follow-up clinic continued for 5 years before finally I was discharged. Thankfully, there has been no recurrence.I'm quite sure you have been doing your own research. I found the following brief extract from some work done in 1996 by Zagars GK, Mullen JR, Pollack A. Department of Radiotherapy, The University of Texas, M.D. Anderson Cancer Center, Houston, USA. and I thought you would be interested."Conclusion: Malignant fibrous histiocytoma is a heterogeneous disease and its myxoid variant must be recognized as a distinct entity. Both variants are locally aggressive and require equally aggressive local therapy. Conservation surgery striving for negative margins with radiation therapy provides acceptable local control and is the treatment of choice for this disease. Patients with myxoid tumors do not require systemic therapy; patients with nonmyxoid disease exceeding 5 cm are at significant risk for metastases and the development of effective adjuvant treatment is an important research tool."Another quote from a different source: "For myxoid tumors a significant metastatic rate appeared only for tumors exceeding 10 cm (10-year metastatic rates of 8% vs. 44% for tumors less than vs. greater than 10 cm)."Your description suggests that this lesion was diagnosed early on in its development and the likelihood is that it is still quite small in size. That being the case, I would certainly be feeling more encouraged as I would be expecting it to be treated with local measures making the prognosis much more optimistic.Regards and best wishes,Mike

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Hi, Bob.I am very sorry to hear about your problem. A couple of things to remember:The most difficult time is the Diagnosis / not knowing what is, and what to do.This type of battle can be just as hard on your support group / immediate family, if not harder.Approach a University type Clinic, like UCLA / others, for another input as to what avenue / treatment to pursue.Once you get a recommended plan of action, stick with it regardless of how difficult it may seem. You have to have Positive thinking. I can win, no little bug is going to get the best of me. etc. I know it's difficult, but I also know it's possible.You are a tough guy, I know it from your posts. The available medication, and Science, now days make most of these problems survivable, treatable and a very good chance to return to normal.This is a War, get all your weapons available and use them.Good luck to you and your family. You can Email me if you want to chat privately. TV

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Sending out my best wishes and prayers for a speedy recovery Bob, hang in there!!

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Hi BobThis will be a very difficult time for you and as one who has had cancer, and recovered, I wish you all the very best over these next months. Hang in there and stay positive. All the best.CheersMike

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Bob,Hang in there as there is alot to be said about a positive attitude. If you love simming and hanging out on the forums, I think you should continue if you feel up to it. Relaxing and doing what you enjoy is good for anybody.My wife and I will certainly keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Hang in there, you are going to do just fine!RegardsBob and Carla

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Bob,I wish you the BEST of all possible outcomes. I feel that you were diagnosed early and you'll be back in our forums very soon. Keep the positive outlook on life, and we'll be talking to you soon.....and you'll have good news for yourself, your family, and all of your friends here at AVSIM!

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